This project uses the form of a diary to show how my behavior changes with different levels of pressure. As stress builds, I become neglectful in recording. After the pressure becomes overwhelming, I escape from reality and am left with a sense of emptiness with nowhere to place it. I begin to overthink the reasons behind my escape and start documenting extensively in long passages of text.
When I have no pressure, I lose motivation, which creates anxiety and leads to constant overthinking. Overthinking becomes a form of mental escape. By using scientific theories to explain everything I am avoiding, I feel some relief, but this does not actually help.
When pressure is too low, action is minimal, and anxiety appears again. “No pressure → strongest motivation → higher pressure → escape → pressure drops → no pressure” becomes a cycle. This cycle is reflected in two linear behavior patterns: 1. Abandoning a task before finishing it and replacing it with a new one. 2. Pausing a task halfway through and returning to it after a period of time.
The content of the overthinking is based on the Yerkes-Dodson Law. With appropriate pressure, motivation is at its strongest. When pressure is too high, the desire to escape increases.